You may remember my desperate blog about our cat Lady, She was exhibiting some behavioral issues...which we believed stemmed from the fact that she was being bullied by one of our other cats. But what to do? After talking to my friend the vet tech....I decided to try moving Lady to the basement. I put her litter box down there, and her food. We bring her up every day and lock away the other cat while she is upstairs. I can't believe the remarkable difference in this cat's personality. She used to be jumpy, difficult to hold and pet. She has now become affectionate and relatively calm. The look on her face has softened. She needed her own space...free of being harassed by another who was making her life difficult. She has her own safe place now.
Tonight, I sort of want to move down in the basement with her. Every once in a while...as positive as you try to be, as much as you try to choose love and acceptance....you just feel done. Tonight is just one of those nights for me.....when I am just done with people...their attitudes, their behaviors, their conversations, their games... I know I will wake up in a day... or two...and feel inspired, renewed, energized...but for right now...I am just done. I want to creep into my own private retreat...my own safe place... and be annoyed and be angry and be aggravated...and get it all out of my system.....and I beat myself up about that. But I guess it's part of the human condition...to accept the downs of life as well as the ups....to realize that they will come....and you must greet them and listen to them before sending them on their way.
"There are some things in this world you rely on, like a sure bet. And when they let you down, shifting from where you've carefully placed them. it shakes your faith, right where you stand."
~Sarah Dessen
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