Long day

It has been a long day....an exhausting day.  It has been filled with things that have gone right, people have worked together, lifted each other up, bonded.  It has been filled with frustrating things, things I don't understand, things that confuse me, things that I need to understand...but perhaps never will.

Every part of me aches with exhaustion as I sit here dreaming about how very nice my bed is going to feel when I collapse in it...really soon.  But first, I need to let go of this day and all the things that went wrong that I keep replaying in my head.  Of course, it is always the things that went wrong that stay with me.  I'm not sure why that is.  There were definitely things that went right...people that I am so thankful for at the end of each day.  And today is gone, I need to accept that there is not any thing more I can do with it....and let it go.

Tomorrow I will rest, I will try to find relaxation amidst the to-do list I have created for myself.  I will be still and regain my center, my peace.  When Monday comes, I will go out into the world once again, with a smile in my soul and a song in my heart and I will once again try to be a force of light and love in a sometimes bleak and confusing world.

But right now, it is time for me to no longer dwell in today. It is time for me to put it away and let it go.  It is time to rest and rediscover my strength, fortitude and hope for tomorrow.

“Go back?" he thought. "No good at all! Go sideways? Impossible! Go forward? Only thing to do! On we go!" So up he got, and trotted along with his little sword held in front of him and one hand feeling the wall, and his heart all of a patter and a pitter.” 

~ J.R.R. Tolkien