Dark Days

Some days you feel tired.  Some days you just feel done with the junk....the annoying details, that don't really matter...They aren't really important in the grand scheme of things.  You tell yourself that...over and over...and yet they do matter enough to wear you out, because you still have to deal with them, you still have to get past them today.  And part of you just wants to run away and lock yourself away from it all.  But the other part knows you need to rest and wake up tomorrow and take a deep breath, and plaster on a smile and face it all...all the junk.  And move past it.  Today was a dreary rainy day in many ways...and on days like today, I need to force myself to look past the dreariness, past the rain and puddles and darkness....and concentrate on the promise that it is only temporary and brighter days are coming.....

"Life will break you.  Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won't either, for solitude will also break you with it's yearning.  You have to love.  You have to feel.  It is the reason you are here on earth.  You are here to risk your heart.  You are here to be swallowed up.  And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling around you in heaps, wssting their sweetness.  Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could."

~Louise Erdich