Saving my day

Today I found myself in a bit of a funk.  I don't know whether it is the winter that just won't stop....or just the aging process, but I have been referring to myself as feeling achey breaky lately.  Or maybe it was the reports for work that I didn't feel like doing.  Or maybe it was the depressing look at my bank account.....and all of the accompanying worries that accompany that.

In any case....I was feeling used up, worn out, done, why bother.....  It's usually quiet here on the weekends. Normally, on Sundays,  I am cooking for myself for the week .  I am trying to get everything ready for Monday morning at the starting gate.  But, thankfully I have tomorrow off...so today I didn't really have a lot of pressing tasks at hand.  Maybe that's the problem.  I have so little leisure time, that when I have it....I am not really sure what to do with it.  It's just Alex and I and the puppy and kitties most of the time.

When the girls left, one by one...I wasn't sure what life would be with just Alex and I.  But we've settled into our own little routine.  There are times with Alex that are stressful and frustrating....teenage boys confound me.  There are times when he makes me laugh so hard I cry...because the kid is hysterical...without even knowing it some of the time....the things he comes up with.  But today, he came downstairs, put his arms around me and told me he knew times were tough.  He knew he didn't often thank me for everything I do for him....for all I give him, but he wanted me to know how much he appreciates it all.  I needed to hear that today.  I needed a little hope for the future.  I needed to look at all the beautiful things that I do have. I needed to realize how very blessed I am.   I needed to look at the struggles that I have faced.....and see that truly good things have come out of them.

I wish I could tell you that he always saves the day.   We can't be heroes every day....but he saved my day today.  And I see that little boy turning into a caring young man....for at least a brief moment in time.  I hope and pray that these hard times will soon be a memory.  But today I was reminded that I am not in it alone.

I end the day thankful for all that I have...especially the hero that saved my day today and gave me a reason to believe in tomorrow.

“Don't forget who your heroes are, what they mean to you, and why they mean that to you.” 

~ Gale Harold