Choosing the challenge of life

Last year. I began a challenge on facebook to post a photo for each day of the year.  I enjoyed doing it and some people enjoyed checking out my photo each day.  I was successful, didn't miss one day all year long!  Hooray!!  Now what? I had also started this blog...that went no where.  I wasn't sharing crafts or recipes or anything of interest to anyone...and I didn't always know what I wanted to write.  So....it didn't go very far.  I decided to start again.  Using a photo as my jumping off point, as I did on facebook this past year...and see where the pictures and words lead me from there.

I have tried to be a positive force...on facebook and online and in life.  I try to see the silver lining....I try to keep the positive in focus.  That doesn't mean I walk around with a smile plastered on my face. It doesn't mean that I don't get worried or anxious. It doesn't mean that I don't feel hopeless and frustrated.  It doesn't mean that I necessarily like everyone whose path I cross.  What it does mean is that I choose to live life with a positive outlook.  I have seen so many statuses and tweets etc on social media sites that just seem like needy cries for help and attention.  I made the decision that I was not going to follow that path...but try to find something good or funny or inspiring in each day.  I have found.....that while on that mission, trying to find something good, that I have been able to alter my outlook ...and make myself more at peace and filled with joy by choosing to look for the positive.  That doesn't mean that I won't appear frustrated at times with my children or my job, that I won't let you know that I find little positive about winter...but I will try to put a positive spin on it.

Tonight...I am ready to start the new year. I am ready to be positive and change my life and reality into a more positive one....however, I am not ready to start tomorrow.  I am not ready to go to sleep tonight and wake up tomorrow...no longer on vacation...back to reality.  I am not ready to let go of Christmas, the movies, the carols, the feelings of good will toward men.  I am not willing to wake up to the rat race and the people who are not so nice, who don't always "get" the true meaning of life as I see it.  Today's picture is my Christmas tree...still full of all it's Christmas glory...with my son's half packed back pack in front of it.  It is my reality for today.  Still trying to hold onto the holidays...but being forced to wake up tomorrow ....to grab myself up by the collar....and head into 2013.  Ready or not...here I come....but....I am not sure I am ready!!